Friday, January 13, 2006

went to school...had my first chem lecture...rawks! had my third econs lecture, rawks! had math lecture, ok! but i still tink my combi rawks hahah, before physics comes in tht is.

mixed feelings leh, i want to stay in PJC and i want to go to AC. how to choose?

went back to Barker today, my teachers still kool and funky as always. but i look at the venture troop, i realli unsure if i want to come back anymore. its like....

i think of it from 2 perspectives, mr wong/the leaders and of course my own

it must be so frustrating for ppl like mr wong, he comes back, he gives his time, effort but yet we dun wanna commit. he wants to take the troop to the standard it used to be, yet no one wants to go for the achievements. not realli the best crop of members to have.

den i tink of it from my perspective, i cant commit cus i already commited to God, i m prepared to give scouts some time, make it a small part of my life, but not any more den tht. and i honestly dun wanna spend so much time on the badges, its realli energy draining. i have my own life to live.

i mean like i tink of tht saying 'once a scout, always a scout.' in my heart, i ll always be tht bodoh little boy, with the messy hair and nerdy glasses hu chose the cca cus the barbecued chicken looked good and how the cca transformed the little boy into a acbarker guy. scouts will always be a memory, a time i had tht i ll never 4get. but i tink and look ahead, maybe its time to move on.....

i realli dunno, am i being selfish or ungrateful? i realli dunno? and my parents could like give me good advice instead of making choices harder.

|cowpoo| 7:34 PM|

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